Friday, February 9, 2007

Fiction - Ek Churchgate – Ek Mantralaya

Come 1 pm and Maharishi Karve Marg, an otherwise a quiet…tree lined street between Kalbadevi and VT, would come alive with the giggles and chatter of a junior year students making their way home. Unlike their senior counterparts, for them the end of lecture sessions meant the end of the day in college. The beeline of two and threes that formed at the college gate would split into two directions - close to the junction where many roads met. One path would take some of these college kids into the sub-urban middle class homes of andheri, borivali and beyond. The other led to finer homes and more fortunate lives at colaba & cuff parade. These two worlds co-existed within the college campus though seldom converged.

Amidst the swarm walked Nidhi and Ruhi - two forgettable characters all of 5 feet and 6 inches. Actually Nidhi was a tad taller yet people often confused their names. Forgettable since they were neither stunningly beautiful nor exceedingly quirky. One of the two criteria was a serious requirement if one wanted to get noticed in college – an ambition that neither of them harboured. They were content just being their normal selves. The two of them were amongst 8 others who occupied the last two benches on the extreme left of the large classroom. Farthest from the professor and closest to the window from where one could peek at the senior year classrooms. Nidhi would often sit facing the window…sketching. The gothic architecture of those buildings looked good even when captured on paper by an amateur artist. Ruhi, sitting beside her would steal a glance out of the window when the professor turned her back – to catch a glimpse of the senior year boys walking in and out of their classrooms. It was a rule – each day two of eight girls took upon themselves the task of jotting down lecture notes leaving the rest to doodle, play naughts and crosses and of course enjoy the view from the window. All this meant that the xerox wallahs at kalbadevi were a happy lot.

Though Nidhi and Ruhi had known each other for less than a year, people often mistook them to be childhood friends if not dizygotic twins. Its was not enough that they were always found hanging around together, thanks to the common first alphabet in their last names - their roll numbers followed one another too - 156 and 157. What was unbelievable was that they often ended up getting the same marks on tests although Nidhi’s handwriting was perfect – small, circular and evenly spaced. Though Ruhi's resembled what would appear on paper if baby rats ran across the page and left their droppings all over. At least that should have accounted for some difference in the way the professor evaluated their answer sheets. The professor always asked before handing over their exam sheets to them...'did you two copy again' - they would bother utter 'no maam' while at the same time looking at each other in shock.

Outside of the arches and foyers that symbolized life at St. Xavier's College, the world that Nidhi and Ruhi belonged to, sat at two ends on the continuum of bi-polar opposites. If one peaked into life from Nidhi's end of the continuum one would find a suburban, lower middle class Hindu home, a mother who worked at a government office to afford education for her children. Pocket allowance of 75 rupees a week, 50 of which were spent on bus fare alone leaving the rest for an occasional cup of coffee at the canteen or a rarer splurge on unbranded clothes at fashion street. On the other hand Ruhi's world comprised a large Muslim family of 6 & their 2 servants - housed in an even larger house which stood on one of the most expensive pieces of real estate that Bombay city had to offer. A 360 degree view from the balcony of that palatial house would throw back glimpses of high rises in Bombay's business district, the old university and high court buildings across the oval maidan, the white dome of the sachivaalaya and dalal street in the distance. They occupied the entire 4th floor!

Like most others, they would walk the distance from the college gate to the traffic crossing together where they would split and continue their journey back to their divergent lives. Ruhi would look for a bus / cab outside Metro Cinema while Nidhi made her way to Marine Lines station passing by Irani coffee houses atop which stood old wooden buildings waiting to crumble.
On some days Ruhi would impulsively ask Nidhi to join her and Nidhi would agree. Waiting at the bus-stop they'd chat endlessly about the respective men in their lives - a senior year boy that Nidhi liked and Ruhi's childhood crush. The conversations about ‘will he - wont he’ would be interrupted by the regular arrivals of the dusty red BEST buses. You know I am meeting him at a family dinner this...Come, come, come that’s our bus. Ruhi was perhaps one of those few people who could say two completely unconnected things in the same breath. Once inside, on the cue of the tick tick sound made by the ticket conductor's instrument, Ruhi would open her wallet while trying to hold on to Nidhi to keep her balance and give a handful of coins to the conductor - too lazy to count the exact amount needed. Ek churchgate...ek mantralaya she said and continuing her conversation about her dinner that evening while the conductor gave them disgruntled looks and handed over their tickets and the remaining change. Sometimes they'd add up the digits on the serial number of the bus tickets till they arrived at a 2 digit number - which would then be checked for which alphabet it stood for...'S' who do i know whose name starts with 'S' who is thinking of me? At other times they'd indulge in mindless giggle as the bus took sharp turns near Flora Fountain and Churchgate with the two trying to balance themselves. That short, less than 5 minute, bus journey meant some more happy times together and that Nidhi did not have to walk in the scorching afternoon sun to the railway station. Even that extra bus ride costing 1.50 paise was a luxury considering her meagre pocket money. In the two years that they spent together in college Ruhi treated Nidhi to many more. Bus rides, movie tickets, pizza and unlimited cups of Nescafe from the dispenser at the canteen. For every 25 or so cups of coffee Ruhi bought for the both of them, Nidhi would buy two and sometimes when Ruhi was short of money she'd ask Nidhi for a buck or ten. But no one kept accounts and there was never a sense of discomfort about this. Not the first time Ruhi said 'ek churchgate - ek mantralaya' and not today…15 years hence.



Thank you arpana for the picture

Monday, January 29, 2007

Differentiating between the event & the outcome

I heard about the first sport's event that my 3 year old niece participated in, recently. I was curious to know her reactions and feelings post the event. I was told that she actually did not connect the prize she won to the race! She thought she's getting a gift!

I instinctively smiled as I read that, then paused and reflected. There was a lesson there in what she did, for me.

As I look at things as an adult - an 'event' and its 'outcome' are inseparable in my mind. We are taught as children through the method of reward and punishment to repeat good behaviour and keep away from naughty deeds. The act getting linked to the reward probably sets in a cycle in motion. As we grow older we learn to predict the pay-offs associated with events, and our focus of attention is divided as much on the effort to make the event possible as it is on the pay-off, if not more. Focusing on the pay-off in turn breeds a sense of competition, a feeling of expectation and a preoccupation with the 'self'.

Breaking out of the expectation of a pay-off is a truly liberating experience. It is probably what an artist or a sportsman would feel, lost in the depths of his performance or game where the outside world and its rules cease to matter. The thought in itself exudes beauty, the feeling worth striving for!

In my effort to strive for this feeling of bliss and unlearn some of the behaviour that comes in the way, I will remember this - there are no prizes, just gifts and gifts can come my way any time and in any shape! Enjoying an experience is in itself the gift.

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On a related note - while writing this post I pondered over the word 'adulterate' -
To make impure by adding extraneous, improper, or inferior ingredients. It reminded me about how we as grown-ups sometimes impose our world view on children and in doing so sometimes 'adult-erate' their thinking.




Thursday, January 11, 2007

One

Where do I begin
To separate what is yours
And what is mine

The breath and beat
that keep me alive
do i call them yours
or mine?

The thoughts, feelings
could i create them
without you?
Then those are not
solely mine too

Like lovers
Parted - in time
Each day, each minute
Each life that goes by
Without you
Is a burden
My soul bears

If You and I
Are destined
To be one - in time
Then what should I call yours?
And what should I call mine?

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P. S - This thought has evolved in time. Part 1 - Relinquish, Part 2 - The sun and his twin



Tuesday, December 19, 2006

On nursery rhymes and morbidity

All of us have some discussions left incomplete, questions left unanswered that resurface every now and then. Untill you don't bring closure to these thoughts / questions, they come back to haunt you one way or another. One such question in my mind has been - why nursery rhymes have morbid undertones. A college mate and i had discussed this for the first time about 10 years ago. Last month it surfaced again on reading this post 'on struggling with poems language and culture' and then yet again when someone mused about why did the engine come and break piggies bones? I had to get to the bottom of this issue.

Those were never mean to be nursery rhymes in the first place

An excerpt from the secret history of nursery rhymes states that....

Many of the origins of the humble nursery rhyme reflect actual events in history! The secret meanings of the Nursery Rhyme have been lost in the passing of time. A nursery rhyme was often used to parody the royal and political events and people of the day. The humble Rhyme was used as a seemingly innocent vehicle to quickly spread subversive messages! A rhyme is often short and easy to remember and this was a critical element when many people were unable to read or write and a rhyme was verbally passed from generation to generation - it was also a vital element when commoners wanted to comment on the events of the day! It must be remembered that direct criticism or dissent would often have been punishable by death!

So while Jack (of the jack and jill fame) was Louis the XVI, jill who came tumbling after him was the queen Marie Antoinette and humpty-dumpty was not this over-weight cute thing we had imagined. Infact he was not even human, it was a cannon that protect a church in the city of colchester. And ring-a-ring of roses, made a reference to a deadly plague that gripped england in the 1300's that left a rosy red rash in the form of a ring, and killed many - which is why - they all fall down !

How rhymes of yore (and gore) become nursery rhymes....

After 200 or so years of narrating rhymes - people got a little weary of them. Their vocal chords needed rest. So around the middle of the 1500s, they started printing little booklets with these rhymes, also supported by cute illustrations. Thus we see the birth of comics - called Chapbooks.

Chapbook is "a small book or pamphlet containing poems, ballads, stories, or religious tracts". More people during this time were learning to read but the chapbooks were also popular with people who could not read as they contained pictures, in the printed form of crude wood engravings - A Middle Ages equivalent of a Children's comic!
Though it has not been mentioned explicitly, one can infer that, since these chapbooks were amongst the first forms of printed literature available, people learning how to read used these and would have probably set a precedent there in including these rhymes in any toddler's coursework. Besides these rhymes had some elements in their structure and language that made it easy for people to remember them - the alliteration in hickory dickory dock or phonetic words like baa baa in the one with the blacksheep - which could have aided their continued presence in the pre-school syllabus.

Why do children still recite these gruesome ballads?

One reason is that these rhymes have become sacred cows in their own right. Attempts at revising these rhymes have not met with much success - a) people believe that these rhymes have been part of our childhood for generations and revising them would be losing some of that legacy and b) that some sources state "that such rhymes allow children to imaginatively deal with violence and anger and revising them would mean that we are poorer as a society because of the lost opportunities to discuss obsolete values"

I don't completely agree with either - my mother and grandmother did not grow up reciting these rhymes. They had rhymes of their own and i'll come to that in a bit. So culturally it would be safe to assume that at the most 2 generations (mine and the one before) are familiar with these since our lineage does not take us back to 17th century England. And the second reason i partially agree with - yes these could act as starting points to stir up discussions on racial or religious hatred but i suppose 5 or 6 would not be the right age to broach such subjects...don't you agree? It would be more appropriate fodder for grown-up discussions.

Which brings me to reason # 3 - that its too tedious to change the syllabus (getting new books printed and all that) and where would we find new nursery rhymes for kids - so lets just conclude we are a lazy lot who'd rather have kids wondering why most of their nursery rhyme characters are falling, hurting and having their crowns and bones broken.

Did my mother sing Goosey Goosey Gander?

On one of my recent trips home, i heard my 3 yr old niece recite hindi rhymes (machli jal ki rani hai...jeevan uska paani hai and bandar mama...pehan pyjama) taught to her by my mother. Some I had heard before, some were new to me - but none of them were the text book rhymes i was familiar with. I did a quick search to see if i these rhymes were popular with others too or whether i could find more of them. I found a whole host of pages dedicated to them. Indian Nursery Rhymes has poems in many indian languages...thanks to which i heard yere yere pausa (marathi for - a child calling the rain). Karadi Rhymes has two cds full of indigenous compositions like 'my name is madhavi...I'm from allepey'. Hopefully we'll see more such inclusions to what kids are taught in kinder garden and we wont have an instance where some child asks his mother ' but mama why did they not pick up humpty dumpty when he fell down,' with the mama saying...'beta i don't have the answers to your questions...just learn it up or how will you do well in your school admission interview'

And here is a really cute one i found on this site

utho beta aankhein kholo
bister choro or moonh dholo
itna sona theek nahi hai
waqt ka khona theek nahi hai
sooraj nikla taare bhaage
dunya waale saare jaage
tum bhi utho bahir jao
achay waqt ka lutf uthao

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An excellent resource on the history of rhymes here and here


Nursery Rhymes,History of Nursery Rhymes,Indian Rhymes,

Friday, December 8, 2006

Crack



Mahino porane crack aaj phir nazar aane lage hain
Shayad cement achhe quality ka nahin tha
Chalo chodein in poorani baaton ko
Kyon na bazaar se aaj kuch naye rishtein le ayein?

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Cracks from the past have started resurfacing once again
Maybe we did not use a good quality sealant
No point trying to mend something so old
Why not go and get ourselves some new relationships today




PS - i always find it difficult when i think in one language to translate it to another. These were just 4 lines so i dared to attempt. suggestions on the hindi - english translation are welcome :)

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Of user-generated content, ego trips and responsible journalism

I was sent a link to this article this morning which talks about how the web is creating online ego monsters indulging in solipsism. At the first glance it made some sense.

Yes, the anonymity of the web does lend itself to (some) people making exaggerated claims about their achievements or compensating for possibly real world limitations by indulging in virtual world fantasies. But the article took an extremely one sided stance about the issue.

''There is something about the web that brings out the ego monster in everybody… Even in their quieter modes, denizens of the web seem to lug around huge egos and deeply questionable assumptions about how interesting they and their lives might be to others.''

There are blogs out there which bring forth social, political issues people are facing forgotten parts of the world which people would otherwise have not noticed or bothered about. Collaborative blogs that have offered critical and timely help in times of crisis. Blogs discussing art, poetry, literature, business and what have you. There are blogs functioning as online help lines – yes there is only so much one can help through an online medium but it at least offers people a platform to vent their feelings and know that many others in the world go through the same issues. But Mr. Kinsley decided to leave aside ALL of these areas and talk about sites that are only host content that is personal in nature. Fair enough! Nothing wrong with that…Except – please tell me how does some one posting about his life making him an ego monster?

The web has provided a platform for people to share their experience as they go through life. So many people post pictures, videos and write about their daily life on public sites. It’s an effective way for them to reach out to their families and friends, all at once rather than sending multiple emails loaded with pics and cluttering up everybody’s mailboxes.

What I consider most important is – that people’s opinions and thoughts expressed on the web through blogs and sites have brought about some objectivity to issues. When earlier we lapped up content dished out by main stream media and other so-called authoritative sources, now there is greater choice available to the reader. User generated content offers the much needed reality check. Just read through the comments at the end of Mr. Kinsley’s article and you’ll know what I am talking about.


Sites like MySpace help people connect with others, much like Orkut or Friendster or online chat rooms of yesteryears. People go there looking for fun, companionship, titillation or an ego trip. People also build serious interest groups and learn from each other. You just get what you are looking for and Mr. Kinsley’s post is a case in point!


Signed
Ego Monster!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

I'M Irony

We see each other everyday
You and I…
Close enough to share
the same few inches of space
yet…distanced by the silence
that has filled the space for years
You ‘away’ in your world
And me ‘busy’ in mine


*IM - Instant Messaging